Saturday, October 30, 2010

quelquefois

sometimes i wonder if my entire life is based upon me waiting to make a decision. and i feel like sometimes it is.

but i also feel like sometimes it doesn't have to be.

like when you're laughing at a wind symphony, watching the bassoonist and the flautist, wondering about the extent of the damage to the inward recesses of your heart, discovering slowly how [it] really affected you, and trying to decide what the next step should be.

that's when you stop. when the music stops. when the laughing stops. when you're pinned in a void of silence. and that's when you decide that decisions don't have to be made. that life drives itself when you give it a chance.

sometimes i feel like that's the best decision to make.

1 comment:

Brady and McCall said...

Ya know I wonder that sometimes too. I hate making decisions, and I don't do well at all with big ones that is for sure. Then I wonder if I didn't worry so much about them and didn't make it such a big deal if they would just play out on their own. But then there are times when you have to go one way or the other. Life is funny like that though, sometimes you really can just let it takes its course and I love it:)