sometimes i wonder if my entire life is based upon me waiting to make a decision. and i feel like sometimes it is.
but i also feel like sometimes it doesn't have to be.
like when you're laughing at a wind symphony, watching the bassoonist and the flautist, wondering about the extent of the damage to the inward recesses of your heart, discovering slowly how [it] really affected you, and trying to decide what the next step should be.
that's when you stop. when the music stops. when the laughing stops. when you're pinned in a void of silence. and that's when you decide that decisions don't have to be made. that life drives itself when you give it a chance.
sometimes i feel like that's the best decision to make.