It's a mystery to me why, for the past eight months, I've failed to develop any sort of prolonged attachment to a guy. I've just not been interested! I think for the first time since like, the eighth grade, I just wasn't all that interested in liking a guy. This could be due to the fact that there is a missionary in the works. No, I'm not waiting for him. No, we weren't ever official in any way, but he did kiss me before he left (not as a fulfillment of any sort of goal he had or a "filling the canteen" sort of thing...you gotta know the guy to know that he was sincere) and we have a long, extensive history together. So, needless to say, that has kept me going the past eight months.
That was the case: up until yesterday.
Yesterday brought to me Stanley (names have been changed...mostly to protect the small amount of decency I have left in my life). Ironically, Stanley served in the same place that Missionary Boy served and knew who he was. Sort of how I got to know him, I guess. And Stanley speaks French, and we all know my affinity towards men that speak French (basically I melt into a pathetic puddle when it happens). Well, something about Stanley struck me, and now I find myself crushing on this boy.
Blah.
Well, not blah. It's a nice change of scenery from staring endlessly at a mailbox, hoping against all hope that a letter came. Maybe I was more desperate for some male companionship than I thought. But, it does come with strings...strings that I haven't had to deal with since last year when I got my heart stomped on by Motorcycle Man (another story for another time). Anxieties that are just natural when you're a woman liking a man. It sucks.
So here I am, blogging about men. How low have I come? It's like a sappy high school love drama, but without the drama...and a lot of the sappy, but that may come later, unfortunately.
7 comments:
I didn't like anyone for my entire first year of grad school. It sucked. And I'm very intrigued by this development.
I think it's awesome!
It sounds great! If you and the guy on his mission are meant to be it will happen, but maybe "Stanley" is also they guy. Whichever, it sounds like you are having FUN and that is great!
AAHH can't get this to work.
Were Stanley and your missionary friend companions or in the same apartment?
It's nice to have someone to distract you. Just have fun! Don't expect too much, let things go how they will. Besides, if you keep writing about it it will give me some great reads :)
P.S. I've been horrible at blog following lately. It's been hard enough for me to get myself to write once a week. Uhg.
I loved the movie reference... You can't get any better than Meg Ryan and Tom Hanks! Ha ha good luck with all the males in your life... Dating is so tricky!
Your codes names are so cryptic. I'm trying to remember who the boy at this time was... It wasn't Muslim, was it?
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