Saturday, January 10, 2009

Atomic Bomb of the Mind

Have you ever just felt like you're going to explode?

Not literally explode, since I've never actually felt like I'm really, legitimately going to explode, but explode because you've bottled up so much for so long. That's kinda how I'm feeling right now.

It's like I'm going to have an emotional heart attack. Like all this frustration, heart ache, sadness, anger, has all clogged up some sort of emotional artery and any more stress is going to cause bad things to happen. It kind of makes me wish a little that social norms were gone and I could just explode with this crazy array of emotions on people and not have any consequences. I just need something to let it all out of my system, to let out all of that frustration, sadness, etc. It would probably be healthier to let it all out into the world than keep it inside.

Why can't we just say what we need to say when we need to say it?

I wish.


Kristina P. said...

Well, my friend, hopefully you can do that next week on my blog. I'm doing another Post Secret post, so you can let it all out anonymously!

The Boob Nazi said...

I feel like I'm going to explode because my dad drives me insane. UGH.

E.m.K. said...

I'm sorry. I feel like my insides want to be outside right now, but I know that the kind of mental pressure you wrote a is worse. When I am so frustrated that I feel like I'm going to have a mental breakdown, I have to force myself to get out of the house and go running. I listen to loud, rambunctious music (sometimes angry too, for commiseration) and run hard and long until I'm excellently tired. Something about it just washes it away and makes it more bearable for a while. Sometimes I figure out solutions, sometimes it just helps me to shrug things off more easily. But it works for me. Don't let the cold be an excuse - just layer up. :) If you want, I'll take you running when you get back.

brianabingham said...

I felt that all through college as well, I don't know what it is. One day you are going to explode though and then you feel like a big dork, and then after a while you feel much better! By the way when you are pregnant you feel like you literally will physically explode! Egh! I hope you are doing good though and if you wanna come and talk my door is always open. I'll tell you my emotional explosion story- it will make you laugh!

Whitney R said...

I either cry or run. Or sleep. That's how I get it all out. Oh, I also write in my journal furiously. Really, I would take a picture and show you but I fear that you will be able to read all of my feelings. :) It's furiously written.

I hope you are feeling better. You really do need to get it out, though. Call someone, vent on here, write in your journal, go for a walk/run, whatever, just get it out!

Then feel better.

Whitney Leigh said...

I come talk to you when I'm gonna explode. haha I think we both do it, but hey, explosions can be beautiful and so can junk punching....pfffhahaha Kay, I sure love ya, and I wouldn't be mad if you exploded Kayleigh juice on me. Because after all, what are BFFs for if you can't leak on em a bit? haha

Savvy Mode SG said...

whenver i feel bottled up, i will just exercise or just talk to my girl friends on the phone for hours to vent...

Kayleigh said...

Kristina - I'm greatly looking forward to posting some rantings. Ya baby.

Boob Nazi - I'm sorry. It sucks when someone you see a lot bugs ya like that. Like my old supervisor. *shudder*

E.m.K - I'll have to maybe do that. But, unfortunately, I'm not as hard core as you and running in below freezing temperatures (even bundled up) kind of puts me off the whole exercise thing.

Briana - I so appreciate that. You really have no idea how much that means to me. :) Not that you emotionally exploded...we'll see how much that means to me after you tell me your hilarious story. Haha. I look forward to hearing it.

Whitney R. - I do feel a big cry coming in the not too distant future. It really does help, I agree.

Whitney Leigh - Kayleigh juice...ew. Junk punching...hilarious. Haha.

Savvy Mode SG - Welcome, and I agree with talking to girl friends. They help a lot.

Whitney Leigh said...

^^ That comment I left for you up there was disgusting.

but I stand by it.