Going through my emails today, and sorting them out into different folders, I saw some from a guy that I was completely infatuated with for the longest time during high school. Probably one of the bigger high school crushes I had. It made me laugh a little...to think how inconsequential that trivial drama is now. I mean, I wouldn't say that what happened with all of that (my heart was broken, by the way...it almost always is...I attach myself too quickly and get my hopes up too fast) was inconsequential, because everything happens for a reason and ultimately makes us who we are. It's how we learn. I know I learned a lot from that situation, and even if it didn't work out, I still had one of the best dates of my life. Even looking back now, and having no feelings for him anymore, that was one of the best dates I've ever had. I have had a LOT of good dates, still, but his is in the top ten.
It's just funny how times change. Granted, I don't like change at all (like they say in the movie You've Got Mail, "Change is when something you didn't want to happen....happened."), but it's comforting in a way to know that I was able to get over that. To get over that boy. To grow from that experience.
So, to all of those boys in my life who have broken my heart (and there are quite a few, but don't we all have a bunch?)...I moved on. You brought me down for those few moments (most likely unintentionally...although some may have been malicious), but I rose above it and grew into a better person than I was. So, in a way, a portion of me thanks you for who I am today. Who I've become. Without the bitterness of the heartbreak, I could never have learned to appreciate when something good comes along.